you got it all wrong, got it all twisted

i just cannot understand people at times you know. okay, well i guess we are complicated but adoiii. i may not be an angel but still i think i try to be as nice as i can to everyone because it's unfair to treat someone like shit if he/she treats you well. right? so yeah, well maybe i wasn't so nice to this person back then but it was because he was just such a jackass and well, we had a fall out because of something which i cannot recall sangat. so i figured that was the past and let's just move on with our bloody lives and forget about it right? NOOOOO why in chimney cricket's pocket hole must you be all irritating and bring up about the past. "oh trix, you're nicer now eh? i mean you sound friendlier than you were back then. it was as if you hated me. blah blah blah" i felt a bit better when he said "you sound happy" but that feeling went down the drain when it turned to "ohmygod, you're in love eh?" i felt soo eeeeeeeeee. honestly, do i need a man to make me happy? ehhh, unless if he looks like ryan reynolds and has the criteria that i want then okayy. but that's not my point. grow up, please for pete's sake. takkan i wan't to hold a grudge until the day i die kot. so, when i'm nice salah and when i'm mean pun salah. and i wasn't being mean okay back then. i was being honest because you needed someone to bring you back to planet earth.
and sometimes, i think i'm being too nice that i'm being taken for granted. i feel sooo stupid. the only reason i thought you wanted to see me was because i thought you wanted to catch up with things. apparently, that wasn't the whole purpose. fine.... sort of acceptable. but after our little conversation, i believe you're still the same old person that you are. and how dare you say such a thing. yes, i am offended if you could tell from my expression which i'm sure you don't because it's all a joke to you, right? you think that you're so great and you're better than others? think again, please. you're not that great. the only reason why i've been keeping my mouth shut all this while is because deep down inside i'm hoping for you to realise your own mistakes and change. then again, i could be wrong because i'm still seeing the same person that i've known all these while. like i said, come on please grow up. look again at how many people you've hurt. how could i be so stupid. after what you've done i can still talk to you. till today, i ask myself why oh why. you know what, go ahead do what you want but if you push my button i will definitely give you a smack in the face because honestly, you need one. and for the record, it's because of people like you is one of the reason why i have trouble with the word trust.

kkk, i know it's a bit wtf but i've been wanting to write a "happy" post but i have to be honest with you all. there's nothing happy/fun/interesting or anything related to those to talk about. therefore, this is the only place where i can let it out.. though it's not entirely everything but yeah, part of it.