the most overused/overrated/bulshit word: chill
it's amazing how easy it is to consult others but when it comes to yourself, you can't even figure it out. funny eh? i wish things were simple.
peter the rabbit
i have something that i've been holding on to for 19 years which i cannot seem to let go. it might be nothing by now but it is something to me. i won't say exactly what it is but if you know me, you should know what i'm talking about. so, my parents have been wanting to get rid of this thing since i've been complaining with not having enough space in the room. i have to admit, this thing wasn't the only ting that has been cramming in my room because almost everything else is dumped in my room. i can have a garage sale, i kid you not.
i think, wait.. let me rephrase that. i have this problem of letting things go. i'm quite sentimental actually. i like to hang on to it, or in this case chuck part of my memory somewhere in the closet and let it rot there. yeah, maybe that's why i've been having too much junk in my room. but the thing is, this thing is part of my childhood. it is perhaps, the only thing left of me when i was a child. okay, one huge ass of a thing maybe. but, it's been passed down to my siblings, cousins and i want my child (one fine day) to have part of it to. but then again, my parents once told me the story behind this thing and i till today i feel guilty of wanting to throw it out.
but quite recently, i look back at that thing and ask myself "why in chimney rickety do i still have this piece of junk in my room?" maybe this is the time for me to let it go. i told myself that i don't need it anymore. i mean, it's not like anyone wants it. heck, even my child wouldn't want it either. he might be asking for something new and better, right? plus, once i chuck it out it means more space for me to put my other stuff there. righty? yeah, maybe i'll throw it away one of these days.
okay so, who's having a baby? i'll loan this thing to you ;D
i think, wait.. let me rephrase that. i have this problem of letting things go. i'm quite sentimental actually. i like to hang on to it, or in this case chuck part of my memory somewhere in the closet and let it rot there. yeah, maybe that's why i've been having too much junk in my room. but the thing is, this thing is part of my childhood. it is perhaps, the only thing left of me when i was a child. okay, one huge ass of a thing maybe. but, it's been passed down to my siblings, cousins and i want my child (one fine day) to have part of it to. but then again, my parents once told me the story behind this thing and i till today i feel guilty of wanting to throw it out.
but quite recently, i look back at that thing and ask myself "why in chimney rickety do i still have this piece of junk in my room?" maybe this is the time for me to let it go. i told myself that i don't need it anymore. i mean, it's not like anyone wants it. heck, even my child wouldn't want it either. he might be asking for something new and better, right? plus, once i chuck it out it means more space for me to put my other stuff there. righty? yeah, maybe i'll throw it away one of these days.
okay so, who's having a baby? i'll loan this thing to you ;D
in case if you're reading this, you should know that it's you
okay, i don't normally do this but i have to admit this. i really miss you k. serious. it's not even funny anymore. i miss the things that we do like those stupid random stuff, the tons of crap that comes out from our mouth, our emo/selenga/stoned days. those funny stuff we would yak about. how we would dream of this and that. how we would laugh at our rare stupid fracked up moments. those kidnapping days and tak nak balik times. the exploring kl times and let's just go where the road leads us to days and how can i forget the times when we got lost. haih
i don't know why i'm feeling very sentimental right now. i just feel so.... shit, i think i'm going to cry.
k la, enough. corny la pulak.
i don't know why i'm feeling very sentimental right now. i just feel so.... shit, i think i'm going to cry.
k la, enough. corny la pulak.
ain't that a kick in the head
right now, i feel like screaming, shouting, kicking, jumping and crying. ohmaigod.... frack, i'm running out of time dah. eeeeeee
f.r.i.d.a.y. heeeeeee. ;D hint canvas and food
f.r.i.d.a.y. heeeeeee. ;D hint canvas and food
you got it all wrong, got it all twisted
i just cannot understand people at times you know. okay, well i guess we are complicated but adoiii. i may not be an angel but still i think i try to be as nice as i can to everyone because it's unfair to treat someone like shit if he/she treats you well. right? so yeah, well maybe i wasn't so nice to this person back then but it was because he was just such a jackass and well, we had a fall out because of something which i cannot recall sangat. so i figured that was the past and let's just move on with our bloody lives and forget about it right? NOOOOO why in chimney cricket's pocket hole must you be all irritating and bring up about the past. "oh trix, you're nicer now eh? i mean you sound friendlier than you were back then. it was as if you hated me. blah blah blah" i felt a bit better when he said "you sound happy" but that feeling went down the drain when it turned to "ohmygod, you're in love eh?" i felt soo eeeeeeeeee. honestly, do i need a man to make me happy? ehhh, unless if he looks like ryan reynolds and has the criteria that i want then okayy. but that's not my point. grow up, please for pete's sake. takkan i wan't to hold a grudge until the day i die kot. so, when i'm nice salah and when i'm mean pun salah. and i wasn't being mean okay back then. i was being honest because you needed someone to bring you back to planet earth.
and sometimes, i think i'm being too nice that i'm being taken for granted. i feel sooo stupid. the only reason i thought you wanted to see me was because i thought you wanted to catch up with things. apparently, that wasn't the whole purpose. fine.... sort of acceptable. but after our little conversation, i believe you're still the same old person that you are. and how dare you say such a thing. yes, i am offended if you could tell from my expression which i'm sure you don't because it's all a joke to you, right? you think that you're so great and you're better than others? think again, please. you're not that great. the only reason why i've been keeping my mouth shut all this while is because deep down inside i'm hoping for you to realise your own mistakes and change. then again, i could be wrong because i'm still seeing the same person that i've known all these while. like i said, come on please grow up. look again at how many people you've hurt. how could i be so stupid. after what you've done i can still talk to you. till today, i ask myself why oh why. you know what, go ahead do what you want but if you push my button i will definitely give you a smack in the face because honestly, you need one. and for the record, it's because of people like you is one of the reason why i have trouble with the word trust.
kkk, i know it's a bit wtf but i've been wanting to write a "happy" post but i have to be honest with you all. there's nothing happy/fun/interesting or anything related to those to talk about. therefore, this is the only place where i can let it out.. though it's not entirely everything but yeah, part of it.
and sometimes, i think i'm being too nice that i'm being taken for granted. i feel sooo stupid. the only reason i thought you wanted to see me was because i thought you wanted to catch up with things. apparently, that wasn't the whole purpose. fine.... sort of acceptable. but after our little conversation, i believe you're still the same old person that you are. and how dare you say such a thing. yes, i am offended if you could tell from my expression which i'm sure you don't because it's all a joke to you, right? you think that you're so great and you're better than others? think again, please. you're not that great. the only reason why i've been keeping my mouth shut all this while is because deep down inside i'm hoping for you to realise your own mistakes and change. then again, i could be wrong because i'm still seeing the same person that i've known all these while. like i said, come on please grow up. look again at how many people you've hurt. how could i be so stupid. after what you've done i can still talk to you. till today, i ask myself why oh why. you know what, go ahead do what you want but if you push my button i will definitely give you a smack in the face because honestly, you need one. and for the record, it's because of people like you is one of the reason why i have trouble with the word trust.
kkk, i know it's a bit wtf but i've been wanting to write a "happy" post but i have to be honest with you all. there's nothing happy/fun/interesting or anything related to those to talk about. therefore, this is the only place where i can let it out.. though it's not entirely everything but yeah, part of it.
i don't know what i can save you from
i think i'm starting to get bored. this is how i am right now ............................................
righty then. k bye
righty then. k bye
give me one last wish
can we just slow down a minute here, please?
must you get someone to say sorry, propose, profess your love, ask someone out for you? or even sms it? godd, what happened to the 'face to face' or 'conversation' or a say it directly to that person? geez, be a man....
so, indon boy isn't indon boy after all. pfffttt.....
24 more days baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
must you get someone to say sorry, propose, profess your love, ask someone out for you? or even sms it? godd, what happened to the 'face to face' or 'conversation' or a say it directly to that person? geez, be a man....
so, indon boy isn't indon boy after all. pfffttt.....
24 more days baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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