neverwhere: June 2009

let's keep this short and sweet alright?

I WANT TO PLAY TABOO.

i also want that taboo buzzer majigie.

listening to them at 4am in the morning is rather comforting. in fact, i'm having a sing-along session right now. heh. i've been waking up in the middle of the night i think i should move to new zealand. the only thing going through my mind right is sausage mcmuffin and iced milo. where the hell is everyone? oh yeah.... no one's up yet.

productive much?

how yesterday should have turned out:
go shopping in bangsar
stalked edison chen in bangsar
look for 'seven days in the art world' by sarah thornton
take the boys out
go for that indo concert to watch padi and dewa19 and get all jiwang
go to zouk and stalk edison chen again. kidnap him and turn him into a good boy and keep him forever and ever.

how yesterday turned out to be:
had a major cleanup
baked some cupcakes for dinner
came back early and crashed

i told you there's no such thing as happy endings

fallen princesses by dina goldstein

i think disney screwed us big time in believing that there's happily ever after. this implies to chick flicks as well. boy meets girl, they fall in love, a little conflict in the middle of the movie, guy realises he loves girl towards the end and taa dahh. oh please, story of my life.. we all know that's bound to happen. that's why i prefer tragic endings because it's much more realistic and it can happen to anyone in real life. remember cruel intentions?

okay fine, let's stick to fairy tales. pocahontas didn't end up with that whatshisface.. errr thomas... eh no, jack? OH capt. john smith. yeah, he went back to england for medical treatment because he got shot. so they had to make pocahontas 2. it's not like she ended up with john smith in this one either. pftt.. okay, the real reason i didn't like the second movie is because the animation wasn't as awesome as the first one.

here's something to think about. i remember seeing this quote in a painting by ivan lam a couple of years ago.
you said that we would last forever and be together forever and we did. now where do we go?

exactly, so what happens next?

uh, gee great.

so, here i am out of the house sipping some real good mocha latte with some random acid jazz music playing in the background in some restaurant near my place. it's been awhile since i last had my 'me' time and hey i think it's a good thing. i'm in the middle of doing some research for my so called project which hasn't gone anywhere so far and i better do something about it because i am running out of time and i won't have time for this soon.

where was i? oh yeah, artsy fartsy project. i'm still stuck with what to do. i guess i should start sketching and maybe it'll go on from there. i'm so not an artist god damn it. argh.. you know how da vinci has his mona lisa and how andy warhol has edie sedgewick? i need one too. i need that edie sedgewick. i have to look for my edie. wait, i don't think you look for one.. i think that muse comes naturally. maybe i'll have muse as my muse. geddit? heh.. i need to think. i need to discover my muse. i'm going to... i'm going to go and think of what to do now.

ohmaigod, my dissertation. shites, i have to prepare it by next week. okay selamat tinggal dunia buat sementara waktu.

ps. call me, text me, email me, msn me la please people.

fivefiftyfour am

the long car ride song

just like heaven

have you ever thought about their name? i mean for what?
what are you talking about?
the cure. what do you think they're the cure for? happiness?
this coming from the bassist for the fuck offs?
rachel cohn&david levithan

clap clap, shake shake

this is just disturbing in so many different levels i don't even know where to begin. i think it is in a creepy/weird disturbing i would run a thousand miles in the opposite direction kind of way. also, the fact that he looks like ross gellar who's gone all emotional and creepy makes it even more.... disturbing. enjoy!

did i mention that this song has been stuck in my head for a while now?

because today is craving day

i am so craving for:

sundae with hot fudge sauce
pavlova
macaroons macaroons macaroonsssss (i want some more)
that mixed berries cake thingy majigie from alexis
brownie with peanut caramel topping
red velvet cake
daim cake (damn it, i want the entire cake)
eclairs
beard papa's cream puff and chocolate thingy that's gooey and melts in your mouth if it's hot
butterscotch ice cream
strawberry/blueberry cheesecake
chocolate torte
tiramisu (sedar tak it's like saying 'tira, ai miss you' try cakap cepat cepat)
waffles with strawberries and ice cream
nutella brownie or something like that
that gooey chocolate cupcake with that creamy icing
rocky road!
creme brulee
banana ala mode
chocolate fondue
milka!
scones
turkish delight ;(

okay and this is what i really want right now, if you get me this i promise i will er.... i don't know. but i'll do something really really really nice.

ok, it's not like it's godiva or patchi but if you want to give me those i don't mind at all. ;D if you can guess my favourites from this chocolate tray i'll make something super awesome for you. besides, i'm turning 21 this year. heh heh. can la please??

thanks to you, from craving one thing i'm craving a gazillion things.

dunhammmm dot commmmmmm

youtube buddy is BACK! yeay not so lifeless because there's another lifeless soul to do lifeless stuff on a lifeless day. make sense? no? gewd.
only lifeless people make up a band at 1am and come up with a super lame ass name.
so now i'm in a band called dNa. i think it's cool, i think we're super cool. we're going to rock your socks off with our extraordinary sounds and you'd say 'damn, they're so hot, my pants are on fireee.' (wtf) d plays the banjo and spins ocaasionally. i play the piano/keyboard. we sing and dance. we're happy shiny people and we rock!

do i turn left or right? quick!

so after much thought, we ended up at the same place again today. cruising around singing to random pop songs ain't bad after all. madonna rocks!

how can that not leave you bruises somewhere? how can that not turn you into the sort of person liable to break into little bits when your first love goes all wrong? what came first, the music or the misery? did i listen to music because i was miserable? or was i miserable because i listen to music? do all those records turn you into a melancholy person?

people worry about kids playing with guns, and teenagers watching violent videos; we are scared that some sort of culture of violence will take them over. nobody worries about kids listening to thousands - literally thousands - of songs about broken hearts, rejection and pain and misery and loss.
nick hornby

sometimes, i wonder about the same thing too.